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Boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy meets girl again, boy loses girl again.

I'm watching 'Vertigo' and listening to its commentary by the restorers of the film, its associate producer and its co-script writer.  It's my favorite Hitchcock film, possibly because it's subjects are those of guilt and obsession (two things I laughingly know very much about).  The commentators mention 'North by Northwest' a lot.  

One of my favorite memories is of being in Los Angeles and holding Ernest Lehman's personal copy of his original script for 'North by Northwest'. Somewhere in a notebook of mine, I have written down the text of a voice-over that was to initially be used to introduce the film. It was never used.  Mr. Lehman's handwritten note in the margin says it should never be published...and I won't.

Listening to William Friedkin's commentary and wonderful analysis of the film, he mentions that the first half of 'Vertigo' is a hoax and I'm reminded of one of my other favorite films is David Lynch's 'Mullholland Drive'.  Another film who's first half is a hoax.

What work looked like today

 

After so much seriousness, a single stroke of my paint seemed so pretty....

 

The Meat

(The following post has no importance or legal standing in the states of Georgia or Mississippi).

I read the statistics. I set out in complete earnest to avoid the traps.  I never wanted to be an average person....an average statistic.  Today, in the rain....I am average...seemingly for the first time. 

I've been called 'cruel', 'asshole' and told to 'rot in hell'.  All titles and actions I stand by.  No one walks where I do. My girls just smile and say they love me, I reply the same and am most grateful.

15 years ago I stood on a century old alter and made a vow in front of a priest and monsignor who follow a faith with many flaws (..the faith that just recently recognized that Galileo was indeed correct about his theories).  

During my first meeting with the monsignor, I brought up the myth of Adam's first wife 'Lilith'. (This was done in the spirit of ideas and conversation).  As I saw it....this man was the first religious scholar I had sat in front of, and I thought I could be educated.  

He looked at me uncomfortably, strangely and didn't reply.  

My future wife ignored the whole exchange, she was ready to move on... I decided to shut up. 

I think now about vows...the vows between 'bride and groom'....and then think about the NEW vows between 'defendant and plaintiff'.  I actually had to think 'which term belonged to me' as I looked at the paperwork. I feel both defensive AND plaintive.

There has got to be a new term for 'Ex-wife'.  Too many syllables and implications.  She's family.  I'll love her forever.....as family....When she smiles....I do, inside.

Meanwhile, I continued to fill out the paperwork...it's a necessary task.

Not too cold for pelicans

It's cold and raining here on the harbor, I'm about to shower then review my divorce papers.

Do Not Feed the Bear

 

Kitty, kitty, kitty

 

Masterbating with a Sharpie

I don't doodle....I like ideas......this is a doodle.....I'm leaving the word balloon blank so it can be re-used....use it....

 

Borrowed from Kelsey

My daughter Ava just told me that she was at the beach today and that the sky was the water and the grass was the green sky....I vote 'her' to rule the planet Earth.....as long as she lets me have the occasional hamburger.